Bird's Nest

As I was picking up my daughter from Pre-K I saw a beautiful site.  A bird’s nest was perched out on the furthest branch it could possibly be built upon on one of the tallest trees I have seen in my neighborhood.  How in heaven’s name could that momma bird have thought that was the safest place to build a nest?  And yet, that is where the anchor holds.  That is the safest place for her to build her nest.  Mind you, a nest that will hold her most treasured possessions.I tossed and turned last night over a number of weights on my soul.  One being that pretty much everything I am doing at this present moment has LONG exceeded my comfort zone.  This calling as a coach’s wife, mom responsible for raising three sharp arrows and leading a women’s ministry that has been planted in my heart to become more of a movement makes me uncomfortable every single day.  Honestly, last night I got tired of seeing all my insecurities and fears.  I got tired of worrying about all the potential I am risking for embarrassment.  I mean I got some things on the table before me that make me want to vomit.  Pacing in my room I had a pretty heated “discussion” with the Lord letting Him know just how far I am out on that branch.  That the wind is blowing and we done long passed my knowledge base, capabilities, and confidence level years ago…..but this branch seems a bit too far, maybe farther than I am willing to go.  Told Him I was ready to quit.There I said it.  I wanted to quit last night.The Holy Spirit merely responded with a single question to my heart.  “What do you want to be known for, Cari?”Ouch.  That question put things into perspective pretty quick.  What do I want to be known for….?...Not a quitter I know that much.  Not for my insecurity.  Not for my lack luster abilities.  Not even for the things I consider myself decently good at.Where do you feel the strongest urge to just toss up your hands and stinking quit? Your marriage?  Your parenting and the exhausting nature of correction and leadership it takes to raise sharp arrows?  Waiting for your Prince Charming?  The fruition of a God sized dream to become a reality?  A relationship to be mended?  An addiction to finally be overcome?  What is it, dear heart?Let’s just get bare bones honest here.  I want to be KNOWN for GOD keeping me on that branch, safe inside the security of that nest.  No matter the wind, or the weather that surrounds me…..I want to be known as a daughter of God that believed her Father when He told her, “the ANCHOR HOLDS, Cari.”To be known for my unshakable belief in a mighty God….yes.  Toss my insecurity – it’s a lie.   Toss my abilities – I don’t want to do it anyway.  Toss everything I think I’m so great at – I will still fall short.My calling, your calling, should be well beyond our comfort zones.  We are not going to give up, quit or stop short just because the wind blows.  I don’t want us to be known for our insecurities.  I want us to be known for God’s power.  He’ll hold.  If God has you, His most treasured possession, in the nest on the furthest branch on the tallest tree and the wind is whipping…Stay in the nest and on the branch.  The Anchor will hold.“We have this as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul, a hope that enters into the inner place behind the curtain, where Jesus has gone as a forerunner on our behalf, having become a high priest forever.” Hebrews 6:19Bird's Nest

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